I was enjoying the full 9-month ride, getting the hang of it finally when my life took another 360-degree turn yet again when he came out. It was the end of my life as I know it! Suddenly it was as if I was living somebody else’s life and my old one disappeared without a trace. Goodbye to my single, comfortable, tried and tested life and hello mommyhood! Hello as well to my four-inch-or-so caesarian scar just below my navel! I would’ve wanted to deliver my baby normal, what with my fear of medicine and everything inorganic but 12 hours after my water broke, I was only 3 or 4 inches dilated that it would be impossible for my baby to come out via normal delivery, hence, without a moment’s hesitation I signed the waiver permitting the maternity hospital to cut a whole on me and get my baby out! Much as I am paralyzed with fear of the impending first major operation in my whole 30 years of existence, I fear for my baby’s well being and safety the most that my concerns readily fall into second priority.
The first few days were the hardest, while I was tending to my wounds – which can be very painful, especially when I carry my baby, that I can’t carry him longer even if I wanted to – I need to care for my son as well. He is so little, so helpless it seems, so fragile that I was wondering if I will ever really know how to care and nurture him. For the first time in a while I was having doubts whether I could muster my parenting ability soon enough so I would know how to keep him safe and satisfied. The first 2 days after we brought him home, I never slept for nearly 48 hours because all I wanted to do is look at him, and hold him as soon as he cooed! Also, I felt like I had to stay on guard lest I will wake up the next day and find him gone. I had to pinch myself every so often just to make sure, just to convince myself that I wasn’t altogether lucid dreaming and that this is a reality. My answered prayers, my dream come true, my heaven…my firstborn in my arms…it doesn’t get any better than that!
let’s get floored!
This is one mommy event every mom should go to,Moms on the floor by Mommy Mundo on September 11. This will be both beneficial to moms and babies, and daddies as well. There are just way too many benefits in just learning a few basic yoga poses and what fun will it be to be doing it along with our babies.
I have always fancied myself to be a true blue yogini and would love it very much if Jared will grow up doing yoga as well… this is a baby step towards the realization of that lifelong dream. I just wish we could go there…blessed be.
Do check out Mommy Mundo’s site for more info and don’t forget to bring your mats..see you all there!
Note: Thanks SP for the info!
5 more days to go…
time flies fast..
now i’m left with only 5 more days until my son’s first birthday . i just want a simple, memorable thanksgiving to celebrate my baby’s first year of life, nothing really fancy. an afternoon of fun with neighbors, closest friends and relatives in jollibee and a nice, sunny weather and we’re all set!
- invites/tarp/cd layout/thankyou notes – done courtesy of tito ken
- cake and cupcakes – were ordered from cupcakesforless (thanks SP moms!) and just need to be picked up by tita cecille come sunday
- cd giveaways – daddy will take care of these
- lootbags – the cutie little nifty bags courtesy of chocolatefund ( i’ll be arranging the goodies in the bags later today)
- jared’s outfit – just needs a little ironing
- photos – daddy will take care of this, as well
- guest – confirming/waiting for others to confirm
- decors – courtesy of jollibee
- food – courtesy of jollibee
in retrospect, i have been pondering about these for months now. searching online for suppliers of cake, cupcakes, party favors, decors, etc. a big thanks to SP forum and to all the moms there for their brilliant ideas information and tales of encouragement and tips on throwing a birthday bash, without which, i would have been at a total loss..
thanks in advance to every one who will take the time out of their busy schedules to celebrate this very important occasion in my son’s life!